Monday, May 6, 2013

Time: 45 minutes.

Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting Burmese-style with my hands on my knees.

Experience: There was a palpable sense of excitement going into this session. I closed my eyes and immediately perceived my visual field "vibrating" at about six to eight times per second. Concentration was high. "Vibrations" were slippery and hard to see and I made a mental note to really, really pay attention to them. Awareness shifted to my sense of touch and the "vibrations" sped-up to maybe twelve times per second or so. I slipped into a little story and snapped back. Concentration was even higher. "Formations" were somewhat evident. Background mental process were objects along with the more traditional five sense-objects. Equanimity was moderate to high. The distinction between arising and passing was clearly evident. There was an anomaly in concentration but no clear "Door", and a physical wave of pleasure. I was back to square one. This cycle repeated several times, with each cycle going going faster and faster. "Vibrations" were going faster than I can really count. The "Immaterial Jhanas" cropped up now and then, but quickly skedaddled with increased focus on their arising and passing.
Then (I don't remember if there was a preceding concentration anomaly) a rapture wave that was slooooow and steady and FULL OF EQUANIMITY AND DEEP, DEEP JOY - it built and built. My excitement and joy seemed to have no limit. My visual field was full of light. "Vibrations" were super fine and super fast. This continued until the session ended (kind of suddenly and in the middle of this experience) - hey, I meditate on my lunch break, and a guy's gotta make a living.


Observations: This one is well outside of my prior experience. I'm on the fence about whether to just see what happens in the coming days or immediately post this on the "DhO" in "Dharma Diagnostics". You are reading a blog entry by one confused cookie . . . was that last experience "Pure Land One"? I guess time will tell . . . potentially.

Updated on May 7, 2013: The effects of this experience lingered for the rest of the day: though not in sitting meditation, equanimity was very high and even the tiniest bit of examination revealed that the entire sense-field was vibrating at a very, very high rate of speed.

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