Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A
quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on
my knees.
Experience: I
closed my eyes and awareness
settled on touch-sense. Sensations flickered in and
out of
existence at a rate of about six times per second.
Concentration and equanimity were moderate. I
reminded myself what the Three
Characteristics are. Thoughts were observable as
objects. I fell into a story. When I popped out, concentration and
equanimity were increased slightly and the flickering of sensations was more rapid (maybe ten times per second). The arbitrary assignment of
"self-hood" to sense-objects was apparent. I let go of "doing" the meditation, and simply allowed sensations to do their thing. There was a mental (almost physical) "clunk" as discursive thought stopped completely. Sensations arose, did their thing, and passed. I dozed-off briefly a few times. There was some physical discomfort and aversion present. Unlike most sessions recently, this one did not fly by.
Observations: As I write this, discursive thought is slowly booting-up again.
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