Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A
quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on
my knees.
Experience:
I closed my eyes and observed touch-sensations flickering in and
out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was low and the field of awareness was shallow. Within a few
moments I was sucked into a
story. I popped back out and concentration was stronger (perhaps moderate). Thoughts and feelings
were objects along with the more traditional five-senses. There was physical
discomfort, boredom, aversion to meditation, and fatigue. Then I was sucked into a
little story again and everything repeated, but in a shorter period. This happened over and over again - perhaps fifteen or twenty times.
Observations: This was a cycle-heavy session. Its left me feeling disoriented and apprehensive of the ground yet to be covered. Heavy sigh. Go straight, Mike.
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