Time: 20 minutes.
Situation: A
quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on
my knees.
Experience:
I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and
out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of
concentration was moderate to low. Equanimity was low. I reminded myself that
all
of "this" was not me, not permanent, and not satisfying. Awareness shifted to touch-sensations. I as sucked into stories a few times, but never for very long.
Observations: I don't really have any observations to make except that I feel very run-down these days. Mentally and physically run-down.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Time: 15 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. Equanimity was low. I reminded myself that all of "this" was not me, not permanent, and not satisfying. Then I watched the flickers. Then awareness shifted to touch-sensations. Then I started to nod-off . . . regularly. Finally I gave-in and lied down - lights out.
Observations: I feel like I've "fallen back" a little towards the tail-end of the Dark Night. I've been going through a phase where I haven't wanted to do much of ANYTHING. Its hard to wake-up. Hard to go to work. Hard to feed the dogs. Hard to meditate. Hard to post about meditating. I'm not sure what's going on. I needed the nap I took today instead of meditating on my lunch break, but my plan is to give meditation another shot this evening when I get home - and to blog about it! Here's to plans!
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. Equanimity was low. I reminded myself that all of "this" was not me, not permanent, and not satisfying. Then I watched the flickers. Then awareness shifted to touch-sensations. Then I started to nod-off . . . regularly. Finally I gave-in and lied down - lights out.
Observations: I feel like I've "fallen back" a little towards the tail-end of the Dark Night. I've been going through a phase where I haven't wanted to do much of ANYTHING. Its hard to wake-up. Hard to go to work. Hard to feed the dogs. Hard to meditate. Hard to post about meditating. I'm not sure what's going on. I needed the nap I took today instead of meditating on my lunch break, but my plan is to give meditation another shot this evening when I get home - and to blog about it! Here's to plans!
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six to eight times per second. Strength of concentration was high. Equanimity was high. I reminded myself that all of "this" was not me, not permanent, and not satisfying. Then I watched the flickers. The three characteristics were there, most often one characteristic per flicker, but sometimes they were all there. Thoughts, "remembering", and emotions were observable as objects, flickering in and out of existence. I dropped into a story after a while and then popped back out. Lather, rinse, repeat.
Observations: Time will tell, but this feels like the tail-end of the Dark Night, and entry into the rocky terrain of low equanimity. My emphasis in this session was more on being "on the ride" and less on really focusing in on each flicker of perceptual reality; more about just being aware of the omnipresence of the Three Characteristics. Its an interesting approach.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six to eight times per second. Strength of concentration was high. Equanimity was high. I reminded myself that all of "this" was not me, not permanent, and not satisfying. Then I watched the flickers. The three characteristics were there, most often one characteristic per flicker, but sometimes they were all there. Thoughts, "remembering", and emotions were observable as objects, flickering in and out of existence. I dropped into a story after a while and then popped back out. Lather, rinse, repeat.
Observations: Time will tell, but this feels like the tail-end of the Dark Night, and entry into the rocky terrain of low equanimity. My emphasis in this session was more on being "on the ride" and less on really focusing in on each flicker of perceptual reality; more about just being aware of the omnipresence of the Three Characteristics. Its an interesting approach.
Monday, June 10, 2013
Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed touch-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate to high. I reminded myself to focus on the space between the "flickers" and that all causal phenomena are not me, impermanent, and unsatisfying. I dropped into a story and popped back out. Concentration was slightly increased. Sensations from multiple sense-doors presented simultaneously in each "flicker" of perceptual reality. Comfort oscillated between moderate equanimity and minor physical/mental discomfort. I dropped into a story, popped back out, and the cycle repeated. This happened maybe twenty or thirty times with me on occasion dozing-off instead of dropping into a story, though all of these periods of non-investigation of sensate reality were brief.
Observations: Things seem to be be moving along the Progress of Insight. Cool.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed touch-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate to high. I reminded myself to focus on the space between the "flickers" and that all causal phenomena are not me, impermanent, and unsatisfying. I dropped into a story and popped back out. Concentration was slightly increased. Sensations from multiple sense-doors presented simultaneously in each "flicker" of perceptual reality. Comfort oscillated between moderate equanimity and minor physical/mental discomfort. I dropped into a story, popped back out, and the cycle repeated. This happened maybe twenty or thirty times with me on occasion dozing-off instead of dropping into a story, though all of these periods of non-investigation of sensate reality were brief.
Observations: Things seem to be be moving along the Progress of Insight. Cool.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Time: 40 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed touch-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. The Three Characteristics were very evident. Discomfort was there as was the sort of "hole" in the middle of my perceptual field. Then I dropped into a story again, snapped back, and the process repeated. This cycle went on for maybe ten or twelve revolutions.
Observations: I am dead tired this week. Its hard to stay awake for the whole session. I feel like I'm adrift in the Dark Night; every once in a while I'll "bump up against" Equanimity, only to drift away again into the Dark Night. I need to get some more sleep and recharge my batteries a little bit.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed touch-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. The Three Characteristics were very evident. Discomfort was there as was the sort of "hole" in the middle of my perceptual field. Then I dropped into a story again, snapped back, and the process repeated. This cycle went on for maybe ten or twelve revolutions.
Observations: I am dead tired this week. Its hard to stay awake for the whole session. I feel like I'm adrift in the Dark Night; every once in a while I'll "bump up against" Equanimity, only to drift away again into the Dark Night. I need to get some more sleep and recharge my batteries a little bit.
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics in each sensation. Within a few moments awareness transitioned to touch-sensation, and the speed of flickering increased and the vibratory quality of reality was very, very fine. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Concentration was high-moderate and the field of awareness had a Boundless/Infinite Space quality to it. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. No one Characteristic was predominant. There was bodily discomfort that increased throughout the session, but it was just "out there" in the perceptual field. The "dead area" in the middle of the perceptual field I described yesterday was present here to, but was less pronounced.
Observations: n/a.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics in each sensation. Within a few moments awareness transitioned to touch-sensation, and the speed of flickering increased and the vibratory quality of reality was very, very fine. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Concentration was high-moderate and the field of awareness had a Boundless/Infinite Space quality to it. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. No one Characteristic was predominant. There was bodily discomfort that increased throughout the session, but it was just "out there" in the perceptual field. The "dead area" in the middle of the perceptual field I described yesterday was present here to, but was less pronounced.
Observations: n/a.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. Within a few moments awareness transitioned to touch-sensation, and the speed of flickering increased to maybe ten or twelve times per second. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Concentration was high-moderate and the field of awareness was broader somehow. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics in each sensation - and boy were they there. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. No one Characteristic was predominant. There was some pain and discomfort, but it didn't really "touch" "me". Concentration had a sort of area of dead-space in the middle - if that makes any sense, but the periphery of awareness was bright and clear.
Observations: n/a.
Situation: A quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on my knees.
Experience: I closed my eyes and observed sight-sensations flickering in and out of existence at about six times per second. Strength of concentration was moderate. Within a few moments awareness transitioned to touch-sensation, and the speed of flickering increased to maybe ten or twelve times per second. I dropped into a story and snapped back. Concentration was high-moderate and the field of awareness was broader somehow. I reminded myself to focus on the Three Characteristics in each sensation - and boy were they there. Observation itself, thoughts, and feelings were all objects to be observed as they flickered in and out of existence. No one Characteristic was predominant. There was some pain and discomfort, but it didn't really "touch" "me". Concentration had a sort of area of dead-space in the middle - if that makes any sense, but the periphery of awareness was bright and clear.
Observations: n/a.
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