Time: 45 minutes.
Situation: A
quiet room with my eyes closed, sitting in a chair with my hands on
my knees.
Experience: I
closed my eyes and awareness settled on touch-sense. Touch-sensations flickered in and
out of
existence at a rate of about five or six times per second. The transition from sensation, to not sensation, to next sensation, to not sensation, etc was a little rough and "chunky". Thoughts and emotions were
observable as
objects. Concentration
and equanimity were high. I
reminded myself what the Three
Characteristics are and that sensations will do their thing without
involvement by "me". I fell into a brief story and when I popped out of it, sensations
were flickering in
and out of existence at rate of about sixteen times per second or so. The chunky texture of the
flickering process was gone; it was now smooth. Sense-data from multiple
sense-doors presented simultaneously in each "flicker". The
process of assigning "self-hood" to objects-organ-consciousness
"contacts" was apparent, and seemed tragically misguided. There seemed to be "a lot" of this sort of assigning this session - I don't know if this is because that is actually the case, or I was just observing what has always been the case, but has not been apparent to me. Several times there was "sheet lightening" behind my
eyelids. A few times discursive thought stopped, and slowly rebooted. This meditation seemed to last, from the inside, about as long as it lasted "from the outside" (to my stop watch).
Observations: N/A.
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